One Hundred and Fifty Three.

Yet again my mind in twist,
Clenching like a closing fist.
Turn away from what I know,
Why do I not want to go?

One Hundred and Fifty Two.

What is too much?
When is too much?
Where is too much?
Am I too much?

One Hundred and Fifty One.

A touch,
Skin on skin,
A way to end,
or to begin?

A touch,
Lip on lip,
A way to start,
or just friendship?

A touch,
Hand to hand,
starts the thoughts,
A dream unplanned.

A touch,
Legs entwined,
Is Nirvana,
Without a mind.

A touch.....

One Hundred and Fifty.

What is sex? Or making Love?
Maybe just a hand in glove?
Sometimes it just fits that way,
A feel, a touch, simply Hooray!

One Hundred and Forty Nine.

Sometimes there is a spark of life,
Lifts me above my world of strife.
Person, animal, thought or link,
Simply something to make me THINK!

One Hundred and Forty Eight

My head is empty.
Drained from inside again.
How do I refill?

One Hundred and Forty Seven

The world, it blurs before my eyes,
This should come as no surprise.
Is this the reason that I drink?
Remove ability to think?

I don't know why I run away,
Why I can't face the day,
I think I am a clever man,
But my drinking has a different plan.

One Hundred and Forty Six

I try to be the best I can,
I try to be a better man,
I try to be a helpful friend,
I try to be there to attend.

But try is never good enough,
Decisions made, however tough,
Seem to be the wrong way round,
Can the way really be found?

One Hundred and Forty Five

Mirror moon reflects,
Next days sun not yet dawned,
Tomorrow here now.

One Hundred and Forty Four

Do you have feelings, ones of of regret?
Things that you've Done or "Have Not Done Yet"?
Wishes wholehearted, trying to Do!
You want to release the heart of you.

One Hundred and Forty Three

There are times I just feel down,
My expression is a frown.
All I wish for is a lift,
being happy is a gift!

One Hundred and Forty Two

A life to live,
A soul to give,
a way to think,
Destroyed by drink!

One Hundred and Forty One

The darkness around me fills my soul,
I spiral down, in to the hole,
Do I really have to fight,
as I search for some light?

One Hundred and Forty

Yes, it's me. I'm back again.
I've felt some joy and had some pain.
I've lived my life in many ways,
and have survived all the days.

Now I look toward the heart,
that is where we all must start.
Without that feel I couldn't live,
I simply have some love to give!

One Hundred and Thirty Nine.

The world, they say, it still revolves,
but ,from here, it just dissolves.
A party night and family,
is pretty much the best for me.

I forget the joy, friends unknown.
I arrive. The quiet. Home alone.
Watching the fish,I feel so calm,
At least I do them no harm.

And then the cats decide to visit,
If there's better, tell me, what is it?
So as they lay and simply be,
My tension, stress, is set free.

One Hundred and Thirty Eight.

There's something special about sharing a bed,
Choosing to share contents of head,
Talking about feel and poise,
to a background of white noise!

One Hundred and Thirty Seven.

Like an echo, I hear your voice.
It's in my head, I have no choice.
You told me the right thing to do,
Maybe once I will listen to you?

One Hundred and Thirty Six..

Time ticks off its eternal beat,
But time is tricky, all deceit.
An hour that's full of pain and fear,
Seems to last more than a year.

An hour that's full of joy and fun,
Is over before it has begun.
The faster time you must devour,
Memorise for the darker hour!

One Hundred and Thirty Five.

I refuse to give in to the fear,
I will greet each day with chosen cheer!
Negative thinking is out the door,
I decide to be afraid No More.

One hundred and Thirty Four

My morbid mind it thinks of Death.
My neck it feels the foetid breath.
I wish I knew how to be sure,
To keep his bad news from my door.